The morning began with the primary election in the state of Mississippi and my anxious concern over maintaining the transparency of the vote not just in the South, but in the Midwest. Pennsylvania waits. Here in Ohio, the previous Secretary of State, Kenneth Blackwell, strong-armed county Board of Election offices into purchasing expensive and dated EVS (Electronic Voting Systems) machines which are as flawed as the humans who program them. Indeed, in Toledo, voters in at least one township were not offered the entire ballot. Our new SoS, Jennifer Brunner, recommended that some areas stop using the EVS machines and instead vote on optic scan ballots with pencil, which I find curious because in our township house we’ve always been offered permanent ink. Pencil can be erased. Voters in our county have been told that EVS machines are NOT computers but something analogous to a microwave oven. We’ve been assured that our votes are completely safe. In Chicago this February, voters on the North side questioned pens that wouldn’t make a mark. They were told that the pens contained “invisible ink”, and their votes would count. Unfortunately, optic scan machines cannot read “invisible ink”.
The problem, I concluded, was that for all the time spent registering voters, stumping, canvassing, and driving them to their polling places, once inside the precinct, the voters are on their own. This March in Ohio, Jennifer Brunner rejected polling place observers even though they carried letters of notification. Transparency, apparently, is no longer permitted in the voting booth in the United States of America, or at least in Ohio. First-time voters must be educated and regular voters must be reminded of their rights and options. If I can be sure that the electorate knows how to manage their experience while casting their ballots, then I can be fairly certain that the election results are trustworthy. I am ready to get to work in Pennsylvania.
Determination is sloshing from my cup.
Despite the release of a thorough and factual memo by former director of the U.S. State Department Policy Planning Office, Greg Craig, debunking Senator Hillary Clinton’s assertions that she has ample foreign policy experience, the afternoon would take a frustrating turn. A once public figure is the ideal surrogate to cry foul based on sexism and “reverse” racism. Geraldine Ferraro had nothing to lose by losing her cool. What client wouldn’t want to hire that fierce and unrelenting warrior for consultation? Former U.S. Representative Ferraro asserts that the only reason U.S. Senator Obama has achieved his success is due to his skin color and gender. Apparently, no other person of color has run for President of the United States except for Victoria Claflin in 1872, Shirley Chisholm, the first African-American woman to be elected to Congress in 1968 and presidential candidate in 1972, Jesse Jackson who ran in 1984 and 1988 (whom Ferraro also blasted for receiving biased attention), Dr. Lenora Fulani, the first African American to get on the ballot in all 50 states in 1988 and 1992, Alan Keyes in 1996 and 2000, the Reverend Al Sharpton, Jr., in 2004, the same year that Carol Moseley Braun became a candidate for president.
For many years, African Americans have had a better chance running for President of the United States than they have becoming a quarterback in the NFL. In 1953, Willie Thrower became the first black quarterback. It took almost fifty years after the Chicago Bears brought that differently-colored person in before black quarterbacks would become customary in the NFL. Prior to the 1980’s, only four black quarterbacks had seasons in which they attempted 100 or more passes. Of course, black quarterbacks are only hired because of their skin color, while no regard is made for their ability to make wise judgments of when to throw the ball and when to rush with it.
Ms. Ferraro has done her job well. I’m distracted. The media is distracted. People are distracted. There are, however, some Americans who desperately long for a distraction because they have no means to secure healthcare insurance for their families. There are some families who would like to go to sleep tonight and wake up knowing that their home will not be foreclosed upon, but a second notice sits on the kitchen table. There are kitchen tables in America that have not seen the full bounty of our nation’s farmland for far too long. It’s hard to get ahead when you’re hungry. Without vast quantities of money to throw into a research grant, I’m going to have to assume that these families really don’t care if Senator Barack Obama got where he is today because of his skin color if he is able to motivate millions of people to care about the well-being of their neighbors.
My cup is tainted with bitterness.
The election results came in extremely quickly from Mississippi with a win for Senator Barack Obama followed by an email shortly thereafter from the candidate himself. My husband read the text aloud, “They’re not just attacking me; they’re attacking you. Over the weekend, an aide to Senator Clinton attempted to diminish the overwhelming number of contests we’ve won by referring to places we’ve prevailed as ‘boutique’ states and our supporters as the ‘latte-sipping’ crowd. I know that our victories in all of these states demonstrate a rejection of this kind of petty, divisive campaigning.”
After the losses in Ohio, Rhode Island, and the state-of-confusion results in Texas, many of the Obama-bloggers began to “flake out”. I became familiar with “flake out” at the end of February when my husband and I volunteered at an Obama rally at the University of Toledo. Duncan, the volunteer coordinator from Kentucky, explained the rules the evening before that would enable the rally to run smoothly.
Be nice.
Don’t run.
Know the answers.
Trust your captain.
Our answer for anything time related was to be “shortly”. We were told not to pester the Secret Service and not to speak with the press. Most importantly, he said, “Don’t flake out.” As volunteers queued for metal detection and bag searches outside Savage Hall, three people began to make absurd and unreasonable statements. One person not dressed for working four hours outdoors during an Ohio winter said, “I’m so cold! They better let us in!” Another person said, “This isn’t right. We’ve been out here working all day, and they’re not going to let us in!” A third person said, “We got shafted! All of us who have been working outside got shafted. We should have worked inside. We got shafted!” The complete and unabridged definition of “flake out” was demonstrated flawlessly before me.
A person standing next to me repeated Duncan’s words from the night before, “We’re here for the Senator. “
Some of the Obama-bloggers were just as flaky venting their frustrations after the election returns on March 4. At the time when I needed my Obama community most, they were aggressive and draining. Up until then, we had been very effective using self-policing measures. Many of us reminded the group that, “We’re here for the Senator.” I would add that we’re also blogging for the undecided voters.
Apologies began to trickle in now and then proclaiming a deeper understanding of our purpose. I turned to timelines of suffrage and civil rights as well as Senator Obama explaining, “If it was easy, I could simply mandate change.” If ending slavery, gaining the right to vote, breaking the glass ceiling, organizing farm workers, obtaining gay rights, amongst other things were easy; one person could have simply made them so. However, it takes convincing; it takes a true challenge to create real and lasting change. Could it be accurate that some Obama-bloggers were merely fair-weather-friends?
After a win in Wyoming and some much deserved rest with his family, Senator Obama fired up Mississippi and his bloggers. A couple of people watched his town hall and rally and cried, “He’s back!” An astute blogger made it clear that our candidate never left. It was the bloggers who had split. “Look at the top of this page. It says that the Senator is not asking us to believe in him, he’s asking us to believe in OUR ability to create change.” Perhaps, now we could get back to work, I hoped.
In a quiet moment after receiving Senator Obama’s post-Mississippi email, it dawned on me quite suddenly that the test and challenges of March 4, weren’t for the bloggers I had been scolding. Instead, it was MY belief that required testing. You see, I have absolutely every confidence in our candidate. His word is his oath. Where I fell quite short was my belief in my fellow Obama supporters. I didn’t have enough confidence in the bloggers to see beyond a temporary setback. I am utterly ashamed of myself. I apologize to my community. I denounce my doubt.
At the end of the day, Geraldine Ferraro and others like her who espouse divisiveness and baseless claims of unfair treatment have no power over me. It’s my choice; I won’t let them.
My cup is replenished. Barack Obama didn’t fill it for me. He encouraged me to do it myself.
I have some extra to share.



